This collection consists of poems from the beginning of my journey to where I have reached. Thanks for tuning in! ✨✨✨
1. unexplainable
love story
4/24/08
My love for you is unexplainable, yes it’s true
That I can’t explain our love but I know it’s true
To be with you is what I want to do
Until death breaks us apart
Even then I won’t be able to explain what’s inside my heart
It’s just so complicating
Too much to explain
That if I do
I might get confused
And say the wrong thing
Yes, you got me , I’m shy
But I really don’t know why
Probably I’m just too scared to explain the truth
Probably it’s just your fault I’m so confused
Yes with your bright eyes looking into mine
Its too much to bare
That I might just stop talking
And turn to you and stare
Forget about the story
Then I’ll have to start again and again
And tell you our unexplainable love story
Art: Hopeless romantic Art Prints by Missmissc
2. just friends
Idk what you’re talking about
So I’m asking you this question
Why is it that you flip flop things
When making your decisions
So you tell me: “Give it time”
And I say okay I know
But to me it’s not right
That you’re always so hot and cold
What’s wrong now
Am I making this difficult
I’m just straight up
I am truly honest
So excuse me for not
Understanding you
Your reasons got me struck
And I know, I know, you’re “stuck”
Will you look my way
When I’m saying something to you
I’ve notice that you’re not responding
Is there something that I could do
Its like you’re pushing me away
And I have no say
And this ain’t ok
Remember yesterday?
Excuse me for being cute
And giving you attention
I just want to love you
And I’m making it my mission
And I’m enjoying the chase
But as if this were a case
You’re restraining me
You say you need some space
So I guess I should refrain
From doing all these things
3. 1st love blues
Conflicted with thought
For the love I have fought
For the love I have sought
But have yet not caught
Overwhelmed and confused
Frustrated with you
My trust which you abused
Leaving my heart bruised
And you’re just amused
And is loving you criminal
When I put in my all
And you gave the minimal
Didn’t realize then that this was just seasonal
Conflicted with thought
For what this love has brought
I should’ve caught
On to what you thought
You have brought me much shame
In the future I would’ve taken your last name
Who’s to Blame?
Was is it all for fame
What’s up with your game?
Yes I’m upset
You complain and you fret
But don’t you forget
I was that brunette
We were a duet
My greatest asset
Was the story of when we met
With this great threat
After all my sweat
You’re not content yet
Still I have no regrets
At the end it wasn’t our time
Although we could’ve lasted a lifetime
But I to you was a pastime
While in the meantime
You considered me halftime
Maybe even just onetime
And on the downtime
You weren’t up for the climb
But it’s okay
I’m not about to write an essay
About a girl who got betrayed
Even though she’s in dismay
She won’t display
As if it were doomsday
But if she could have her way
You would have stayed
She’s through with the horseplay
And hopefully someday
You will meet her midway
Just to say
I’m here today
I’m here to stay
After an array of slays
You will be like touché
The rest would be history
ART | Heartbreak Art Amino
4. untitiled
Oh great
Here I wait
Trying to be patient
Shits so familiar, its ancient
Goodness gracious
So much room in my heart, its spacious.
Yet no one’s gotten the part
Times a wasting
I feel like blazing
Light up, I feel amazing
Just want to turn up
Till it’s all hazy
All foggy
Thoughts disappear
Not really , just not clear,
I can hear
That voices in my head
Telling me calm down
You’ll get ahead
But fuck it
I’ll stay in my emotions instead
Cause in the end shits colder than snow
Emotions that I’ll eventually let go
Hehe we don’t love these hoes
That’s how that saying goes
ART: Salvador Rhodes Heart break art.
***EXTRA CONTENT*** Cosmic Bond 12.4.20 You make time for what you want to Ain’t that shit the truth Can’t deny , I know you More than you want me to I pay attention To different dimensions What’s up with the dissension It’s like you lack retention Act like I failed to mention Like I don’t communicate You always want to have a debate All of my woes somehow portrayed As if they aren’t grenades Inside my brain, causing earthquakes All this energy accumulates It seems that you contain The words that withhold my escape I never complain I always behave As you effortlessly persuade There’s no constraint In what you say and convey As I await Your parade On the interface Is outer space I disassociate To our space We created this world I curl up to the thought of you Like a spliff it was pearled We were supposed to take over Its supposed to be me and you Against the world Estoy desesperada Por tu mirada Y connectar con tu alma En que mas tu pensabas What more did you think that I wanted Even over the stars we bonded You promise so much but left me wanting All this love you just exhausted And just like that I’m forgotten My world distorted But I’m transporting This is a sporting I was supporting This courting Its just resorted To be more exhorting Why have you chosen To be less focused Less open You leave words unspoken It’s like its stolen The essence of the moment You hide your emotions But mine run deep like the ocean Where are my roses This is a bad omen You are a poison And you are potent Causing explosions All this commotion But we’re left broken That’s why its hopeless All this closeness There is no bonus It was all bogus We were a cosmic bond You figured out my song But beyond that you don’t respond But I’m still drawn
*** EXTRA CONTENT *** Time loop 12.4.20 This happens again and again You and me twirling as we ascend We confess We defend We extend forgiveness and transcend Somehow we forget And we seek revenge And we pretend Our success Was condemned So we suspend and we get upset And later regret We repent With the intent To try something new instead So we attend This event On the weekend Somewhere And then Time loop You scoop me up in your coupe We drive away We never come back Cause that shit was whack And look now we’re back
5. melody
No words spoken
No words said
Still your voice stays in my head
Like a melody that doesn’t go away, it’s all day
The mental picture in my head
I see it thru my eyes and then
I smile to myself
And then I see you
When you come around
There aren’t words spoken
There aren’t words said
But the glance it’s like intense
Cause the warmth I feel is
I just can’t explain
Its untamed
Little words spoken
little words said
The body language
Took advantage
The glances were stupendous
It was just amazing
Wouldn’t ever change it
Serendipity
Just took over me
And you
Yeah you
Us two
Melody Of Love by Nefe Ogodo
6. weak
1/8/13
Weak
Its when I see you or hear you speak
Its when it gradually points directly to me
Is the feeling I feel that you give to me
Calm
The way I would feel waking up next to you at dawn
Or even twilight
Any light wouldn’t compare to how bright
Your sight would make me feel
Complete
How my life would be if I was with you
First I was a half
And now I’m whole
Feeling obsolete because you were the one who then needed me
Struggle
To keep composure
When I see you I just want to express how I feel because even though I told you a million times before I don’t think you know how profound this feeling truly is
Great
The maximum of all happiness spill in the world
The gratitude felt embraced by the lord
God
Do I love you and want you and need you
Cause when I’m with you the future is all I see
Douche?
Man call me blind cause I really didn’t see it
I just saw the happy man that I’ve always wanted to be with
Shame
Because after all you’ve done I still forgive you
Because
I can make up any reason to still love you
Excuses
Things that show I’m not done just yet
I’m not as strong as I look and that why I end with what I started with
Weak…
ART: The strength and weakness in love Talha Khan Medium
*** EXTRA CONTENT *** 1st Impressions 12-7-20 First impressions can be deceiving What is this energy I’m receiving All my woes you are relieving This feelings really unbelieving What is this I am perceiving Why am I already grieving Just after our first meeting All you’re doing is leaving I anticipate your follow up To witness you again closeup There is no rush I’ll try not to gush as I blush Admittedly I hope To see you again Let’s see what you got On our next session ART Kiki Daydreaming by Lauren Illustrated
7. trust
With all this deception going on
How do you expect to truly move on
When everyone new
Is another version of the one you once knew
Everyone tries
To forget all the lies
But in reality
Broken hearts are causing fatalities
And they don’t have a clue
That what’s done is stuck like glue
The audacity to ask someone to trust you is truly amusing
It’s like telling them they’re winning when they’re really losing
Its like promising that if they drive off a cliff , they’ll be surviving
After all that work they put into the mountain they’re climbing
Hard enough to believe them even when they aren’t lying
They know you’ve been hurt
But here you are trying
Time after time
We’re choosing pennies over a dime
Because why risk getting hurt one or two more times
Its better to play safe
That way you can escape
When things start becoming familiar
See the big picture
An go
Start all over…
We all dream of finding the one
But how much damage do you think has to be done
What if when they come we’re already numb
We’re tired of the bullshit and this love stuff is dumb
And all that they tell us doesn’t matter
Because life has made us climb and fall off ladders
We keep falling from high elevations
To much work put in to get back in to our place
And
At the end we’re promised wisdom
But no matter how much I learn I seem to always miss one
Well I’m getting tired of all that
I feel like even with this wisdom I’m blind as a bat
Why does sweet love turn into a heart attack
Trust in anyone is what I truly lack…
ART Trust by Destiny Blue on Deviant art.
8. fucking feelings
1/11/13
Fuck these feelings
Because when I express them
They lose their meaning
It’s like I do it wrong
I’m over here then feeling like I don’t belong
I’m thinking about just running away
Because my time for love keeps getting delayed
Call me afraid
But I won’t be the one left crying dismayed
I won’t be that
Oh no I won’t be that
One girl who finds the one
Because I guess I just wasn’t cut out for this thing called love
And no I’m not exaggerating
I’m being real
After all, you really don’t know how I feel
So fuck these feelings
Because when I express them
They lose their meanings
Man I hate this feeling
This feeling of being
When I express myself
I pour it out
And after I pour that out
Outcome the shots
I call them “forgots”
Cause after I express my feelings
They tend to lose their meanings
Because you either feel it too or you don’t mean it
The fact that I’m now pouring my heart to this thing
Means that you said you won’t
So there’s my cue to leave
You stole my heart
You’re such a thieve
Now let me grieve
I knew what would be the outcome
Just wanted to play along
Just wishing you would’ve been the one to prove me wrong
But no you proved me right
And now my brain and heart are in a fight
My brain once again was right
My heart over here feeling dumb
The feelings I expressed to you were like a crumb
The types of feelings that get swept under the door
Avoided till gone
Completely withdrawn
You just ran away
You couldn’t even meet me halfway
I just can’t believe you had nothing to say…
ART Artie Abello – Devastated
9. vulnerability
Why am I so afraid of vulnerability
Building these walls so high
Getting out would be nice but I can’t and its killing me
I’m afraid, I’m so scared of getting betrayed
Because that’s all I’m used to
Building you up
So you can be strong
And won’t go thru what I’ve been thru
But it’s hard because you don’t understand
You feel the need to know for yourself
Knowing damn well the outcomes going to be bad
Damn it’s hard to see the light
When darkness is what’s right
The only thing you could be sure of is what’s going to happen negatively
Because happiness is so rare
It basically not meant to be
When you achieve happiness
It’s like too good to be true
So you sabotage it
Trying to reinstate in your brain what you already knew
Wish and hoping all your dreams would come true either way
But once you get your proof
It too fucking late
Because you fucked up so bad
You really ruined it
You retaliated at the wrong time
Because you realized that not everything was on cloud nine
Everything can’t always be fine
And you knew it already but you were just blind
You didn’t notice the signs as they were happening
And it feels like that was the happiest you’ve ever been
And now it’s over
Like your life like just comes crashing down on you
You’re overwhelmed because shit
God dammit it happened again
That thing where you’re in love
And you fear it’s only a fling
You can’t say shit though because they don’t know
So you’re hiding these feelings hoping they don’t show
Damn why does everything good in life need to go
Damn just like they said why couldn’t I just move slow?
But how slow can I move
If I’m moving as slow as a turtle
Tryna get used to you
This wasn’t something that happened over night
Idk how long it’s been just that it feels so right
Overindulgence seems to get the best of me
I seem to get greedy with your love and affection
I’m just realizing now how weak I really am
For me to need this constantly
Its annoying AF and damn
Like it’s true I know you don’t understand.
For you to get it
I would have to write it all out like a lesson plan
Teach it to you as if it were a class
Then test you on it
Making me an ass
Constantly I have to tell me
That my theories won’t always be
As right as I think they should be
Yup that’s when it hit me
As I sit here crying my eyes out
That epiphany I just had was so strong
That my heart just had to shout
These words that won’t mean anything to you
Unless I explain them
Let’s be honest
It wasn’t you the reason that made them
You triggered it though
Thank you for letting me know
That the reason I do these things is so no one else will experience them
We can’t compare pain but we can share what we gain from it
I just hide it all and when I express it
It all comes down like hail instead of a water fall
I just let frustrations out instead of analyzing them
After I do it’s too late
Because I would’ve already blew it
Unless you take me again
Why is it so hard to be just friends
Why is it so hard to love again
Why does it hurt to feel the way I feel
This doesn’t feel real
ART Lindi Levison – Vulnerability haiku
*** EXTRA CONTENT *** Silence Pure silence as I bare my soul Energy exhausted and it’s taking its toll My life gets placed on hold I watch as it all unfolds The futures bright, I’m sold I’ve worked hard to build this mold Unapologetically bold Hearts gotten cold Searching for someone to hold Til we get old Just want a love that’s gold Spliffs here, been rolled I’m just ready to go Where is my beau He’s got a love like whoa All his ducks in a row Everything he does just flows Within me he instills a glow From there our fondness grows Presenting a rose I watch as time froze And on me he bestows Carat diamond bling Slips it on as I internally sing The future is all I see In front of thee I decree Under this bo tree As I say bye to the old me I step into what I’m supposed to be My mind is a maze It will have you in a craze Eyes half closed cause we blazed The lord we praise Love when I meet your gaze And I’m just amazed With you ill exist If Gods will permits So still I must sit I just want to reach the summit So I must submit For now that’s it ART Stillness by Tanika Cronje (sister sphynx)
10. tied
12/12/12
Cut you out my life like gum on hair
I feel still tied to you
I still care
This tie is like steroids with a dash of crack
It’s like a heart attack
Calm composure when it comes to you is what I lack
What are you doing now is what I questioned
Just then, when your name was mentioned
Felt my heart drop
It skipped a beat
I just want to retreat
The fact that these feelings keep coming back
When they need to go
Why do I care
The pit of my stomach is kind of scared
Your whereabouts in which I’m not aware
But then again why do I care
It’s like beware
My mind and heart are like impaired
My mind telling my heart to be smart
Its getting prepared
These feelings left in the dark
Just then another spark
Surfaces another thing
Fml it was just a fling
Or was it really the real thing
This chapter must not be over
Idfk this just might be another trip
I’m emotionally drained
You can prod or poke me
I can’t feel a thing
I’m numb
You show me your middle finger
I’ll show you my thumb
What else is left to do
When we don’t talk
I miss you
But I doubt you miss me too
Rip
To this love
That was not fate
Who even opened the gate?
Fuck you, to whoever did!
Just saying…
ART Night Shibari Art Print – Cresent moon stars tied up Woman
*** EXTRA CONTENT *** At the Entrance 12-13-20 I’m more than just a crush More than just a rush Won’t you come kick it with me This vibe is unique The light shines through me … She just steps in the room They stop doing what they do Just to take a look And that’s all it took Cause they were hooked They don’t know what to expect She appears to be a mess Cause yes she’s stressed But this doesn’t reflect That all this neglect Was not her intent She comes off direct You must come correct Or she will reject In order to protect She always suspects Nothing left unchecked … I just want to build Something that is real It exists Happiness and bliss You wouldn’t want to miss it It looks like the moonlight Underneath the stars I will know who you are … She’s become obsessed With being her best And she leaves the rest To God , in which she invests And she requests Respect to those who test The journey to conquest Get it off your chest … Success is a definite Uncover my skeletons Out comes the testament Where I lament Out comes evidence Still elegant I’m settling Into this resonance … This is me in my raw entity My true identity I’m here for a reason The next season Will uncover this essence And only present excellence I’m not here to be arrogant My light, it’s just eminent ART “The Wound Is The Place Where The Light Enters You - Rumi Quote Art Print- by OLenaArt”
*** EXTRA CONTENT *** Another World 12-13-20 Its become evident That I need your element Why did you present So much intent With no event This happened so frequent I pinch myself Am I dreaming Just scheming Every time you come back I can’t even start to unpack It was just recent You gave me a reason Without even speaking I peeped the sequence I know the meaning My heart is weakened My feelings out here bleeding I’m just here feening Energy interfering We’re out of synch I try to rethink Is this a kink In a blink I’m on a brink All hail king almighty He walks in, he shiesty He holds me tightly This bling so icy Regards me brightly He reclaims his Aphrodite Reaching my psyche The past was so grimy You did me so slimy Will you recover politely Is this even likely You better choose wisely In the sidelines In-between You tell me what you mean What I mean You cause a scene And you came clean So we smoke this green I’m crowned your queen Inside I just gleam This bling just beams And it’s as if it seems Serene Hoping that it’s not a dream So I stay Keene If this were to occur It would be another world Where I am your girl Your love uncurls It twirls and swirls You break the curse As you assert I observe and I yearn for your return
11. troubled
I’m troubled in my mind
Feels like I’m running out of time
I could just sit down and whine
Or I can get up and climb
I can sulk up ,be sad
Or stand up, be glad
I’m troubled in my mind
Damn, this happens all the time
Can’t close my eyes and rest
Seems like Gods giving me a test
Pop quiz !
Ugh mind your own damn biz
Is what I tell the world
When deep down inside
I really want to be heard
I’m tryna be solid as a rock
How much more do I have in stock
Can’t stay blocked forever
Although at this moment that might be clever
But how much more can I take
It just a matter of time before I break
Is So much is at steak?
If I keep thinking at this rate
It will be too late…
I’m troubled
Mind boggled
Time passes
No glasses
The answer is clear
The key is to hear
Past and the present
Aren’t always so pleasant
The Future is blurred
Cause it hasn’t occurred
When Reality sets in
Sit down, listen
Patiently waiting
No need for caving
What are you hiding
No need for denying…
Positive
Negative
Which one will win
With that said its now on a pin
ART (Troubled mind by Chris-Archetypes on DeviantArt)
12. untitled 2
You assume I’m gone
Do you miss me
What went wrong
Was it meant to be
Questioning everything now
Blast from the past , due.
If only you knew what I knew
That things shouldn’t have gone this way
I think we know.
What happened though
Should we even bother
I keep hitting you up
Am I a bother
Idk
Lets catch up
See where that goes
Who knows
You want to avoid it
Because as soon as everyone knows
It’ll be exploited
Empty feelings consume me
Everything was fine
Then you come to mind
Reminiscing
Bittersweet memories
Heart racing
Smirk a little
Frowning
Done
I hit you up
Should I bother
No, but y not
As long as I don’t get my hopes up
I’ll be good
It’s okay
Long as we don’t give our feelings away
Platonic
Hearts racing like sonic
You respond and I’m on it
Heart hurts and its chronic
This feeling won’t go
Neither will you
You respond
My face glows
I respond
The convo wont flow
And that’s how I blow it
Or better yet how I blew it
But screw it
Ha-ka-pa-tew it
I’m thru with it
But then I come back
Cause hate for you is what I lack
This love like a drug
You are my crack
What went wrong
Was it meant to be
Seems like every time we talk
We become each other’s rock
But then you run away
Before I finished what I had to say
*** EXTRA CONTENT *** Temper 12-16-20 I’m burning these roses These are the explosions Of all my emotions All these words ferocious Timeline left in the open Promises were broken You left me with the notion You’d fulfill all those devotions You just said it in the moment From this stems the loathing Of the words spoken Here I was coasting But the other sides atrocious That’s the tip of the ice berg That’s one way to make your mind curve From you all I had was lessons learned So whatever I do now, it’s none of your concern All I did was observe You do your worst With all your quirks All you do is smirk What is so funny I thought you loved me You were supposed to get on one knee You left me feeling like a dummy I thought I was lucky Made me feel all fuzzy Butterflies in my tummy Now my hearts all crummy Turn me into a mummy Bury me alive Cause I just want to die We never got it right All that’s left is to write I put up a good fight Did it with delight Pussy so tight Future so bright Slow burning ember Goes out and dismember My body as I center I just surrendered To being together I was thinking forever But you didn’t remember And you question my temper
13. replaced
3/5/13
I’ve been replaced
Misplaced
Retraced
A million times
Reduced
Reused
Recycled
Doesn’t faze you or them
It doesn’t matter though
That’s your problem bro
Once I’m fully gone
Cause I’m truly done
No I didn’t give up
I just realized that for the last time you fucked up
Last time
Because I’m now leaving
I won’t even be there when you’re grieving
I could say sorry
But I won’t mean it
Therefore I’ll just leave
That way you won’t misconceive it
The message I’m giving you
You’re the reoccurring reason of why I’m blue
Every time I’ve fallen
You’ve fallen too
But on the contrary
Every time you’ve fallen,
I’ve caught you…
You shouldn’t expect much from people, I know
I held you at a higher standard though
One that surpassed everyone else’s
Yet you’re just overly concerned with the masses
Everyone else
Instead of the ones that count
This time I’ve grown
Been preparing myself since idk
My brains prepared me
With things that I’ve never known
Besides this feeling in my heart
Which you tore apart
Your chapter in my life is now over
Now you can return your attention back to your lover…
*** EXTRA CONTENT *** Nothing Matters August 16, 2015 You're brought into this world By two people who either want you or accidentally caused you You grow up to learn all this information, wisdom It’s supposed to make things run smoothly ... But no one really knows They just pass on what they know If what they know is negative, you shall learn how cold the world is If what they know is positive, you shall learn to see the light If you learn from both you become a realist who can see both sides But still You never learn why. Does there always have to be an answer to every question Because there are so many questions but so little answers What’s the point? What exactly is the point of it all? We are selfishly brought into this world and then we also have to find meaning Life's meaning Our creators don't even know But We can’t waste away because that’s frowned upon We have to do what we are told our whole lives Expected to retain all the good and none of the bad Why is it bad , but it’s so fun What everyone rather be doing So many things to keep track of So little time to consider There’s so many things we lack of All of which makes us bitter Nothing matters so why make believe like it do ? Because if he doesn’t care and they don't care then why should you Why do you? I don't even know So sick of finding meaning The meaning that will help me grow Its so much easier to let go Let go and be free Because life doesn't mean anything It doesn't mean anything to me Why am I still here? Idk They tell me for my purpose But my purpose is a no show No matter what I do It won’t make a difference Because he doesn’t care enough She don't care enough And they don't care enough So why should you Why should I? My tear ducts are dry If not I'd cry Then why can’t I die. I'm living a lie Because nothing is ok Nothing is alright But I smile thru it all Its what I'm supposed to do right I gave myself away After so many years of keeping to myself It wasn't at all what I was told it would be It was nothing It meant nothing to me Years ago I lost my soul Unwillingly I saw it go I couldn't stop it I didn't have a say And since that day Nothing was the same Life's a game And It’s a joke I don't want to play My hearts just broke.
*** EXTRA CONTENT *** Untitled 3 1.21.19 The world is already so dark Let me light a candle In this pitch-black space there’s a spark Its brightness cannot be handled Close your eyes Squint as wide as you can Look and you’ll see The silver lining at its peak Look at what’s beautiful When the light meets a world so bleak What do you see? The possibilities of what could be And with that in your mind How could you ever be so blind? Life is all about working towards something And then you unwind Life needs a purpose
14. walk away
5-31-13
He said,
I’m only going to hurt you
So just walk away
I can’t stand to see you cry
So you cannot stay
I don’t understand why
You don’t understand
You seem to be fighting
A fight you won’t win
So please just walk away
Walk away
You cannot stay
You shouldn’t stay
Ohh walk away
You cannot stay
Its not ok
Just walk away
She said,
Why do you keep doing this
Was there some that I missed
Did you not feel what I felt
When we kissed
One minute you’re here
There other over there
Acting like you don’t care
And it’s not fair
You tell me walk away
Walk away
Not to stay
I shouldn’t stay
Ohh walk away
I cannot say
It’s not ok
[Her]
Why isn’t this easy
Why can’t I stay
[Him]
Or why can’t you just walk away
[Both]
Either way
It’s sad to say
We’re not happy
[Him]
I’m sorry but I’m not what you need
It’s just not worth it you see
I’m not ready for thee
[Her]
Don’t make me leave
Walk away
Go away
I want to stay
So please let me stay
Let your fears go away
And we may
Fulfill our destiny
Please don’t make me walk away
Or go away
I want to stay
15. forgiven
11-18-12
All from the past is forgiven
The stuff you have done
I aint tripping
You still slipping though
Still running your mouth
Like what’s this about
You need to calm that shit down
I can hurt your lil feelings
Leave your heart bleeding
Let’s be real now
You aint shit clown
I know you’ve been feeling down
I see you lil frown
Aint no reason for you to be acting out
*** EXTRA CONTENT *** Daffodil 12-19-20 I am a daffodil The more I open the more my heart spills The more I feel Life becomes more real I’m standing still Its surreal I observe as I heal At first, I was trying to conceal But that took the appeal This is my way to reveal This life, it’s not a steal I’ve had to deal With the whole ordeal I was once silent, mouth sealed I was even skipping meals That and my feelings made me ill As a way to seek relief I started to release I was so fatigued Trying to succeed This is all bittersweet He took my heartbeat I couldn’t fall asleep I cry and I weep I don’t feel in peace I feel incomplete Still I proceed Because I believe In the highest supreme Jah placed this guarantee I am his masterpiece And I hold the centerpiece And underneath I am truly unique No longer naive I fall to my feet I feel the heat It’s not so sweet And then repeat We were discreet Then you retreat You had me beat I took a seat Why did you have to lie That’s why I stay high I don’t run out my supply I’ve been cutting back since July Last time we tried You left me to die We just don’t see eye to eye I still look at the sky I ask God why Why haven’t I said bye But no reply...
16. new muse
11-?-15
Passion like no other
Tryna beat him , don’t bother
I’m his and he’s mines
Its when you aren’t looking and that chemistry binds
You together
Once a lone feather
But now with you here I’m better.
Only known for a min but it feel like it’s been forever
Ago since you entered my life
In the beginning I was skeptic but that was in spite
My life’s been so hectic
With you I found light
Shining brightly here is the ore
That will mend the heart that’s always been sore
Never healed but I never waited
This time feels different
Because I’m not faded
Blocked by the past is in the past
I’m ready to move on
Cast a shadow
Cast a new cast
Love is not shallow
I have grasped the concept at last
Idk what’s in store for tomorrow
But as long as we’re both trying
This love will soar in the sky flying
That I can promise
We’ve both been waiting on this
Getting to know each other in lil bits and pieces
Eager to learn more we check each other’s creases
Right to our inner cores
At this rate I doubt we’ll ever get bored
I’m excited and scared
Idk what’s in store
Times got me prepared
Staying aware
Yet living in the moment
No signs of beware
Because we’re both focused
17. wwyd?
3/1/10
What would you do
If I appeared at your doorstep
I knew you were home alone
What would you do
If I asked you if I could come in
Looked at you with the most loving eyes
What would you do
If that when you let me in
I go into your room
And sat on your bed
Would you just smile at me and lower your head
What if I just sat on the couch in the living room instead
Would you offer to watch a movie
I wonder what you’re thinking
Sit down next to me
Put your arm around my neck
What would you do
If I lay my head on your shoulder
Would it be alright
If I then slowly raised my head
To kiss your neck
Would you then mind
If your face and mine got closer
I kiss your lips with the ultimate grace
Would you just let me and hold my face
In your hand
And then when the kiss was over
would you kiss me again?
After that moment I lower my head
Would you just pick it back up
Repeat the moment again
Would you, if I
If I- that all happened
What would you do?
Storm 12-21-20 Birds swarm As I watch the storm Take many forms.
18. looney bin
10-17-2012
I need to sign in the looney clinic
Seems like this love thing has drove me crazy
I’m falling apart
Completely annoyed
Trembling with tears
Kind of paranoid
Yep it’s time to check in at the looney bin
Cause this love thing has drove me crazy
Trust issues turned on
Guard all the way up
Closed heart with pad lock
Emotions kept at nonchalant
So I’m checking in at the looney bin
Its been ever since this love thing
Nobody knows or sees me
Nobody hears nor listens
They haven’t even noticed
That I’m in a looney bin clinic
19. negative zero
3/28/13
I want to be his negative zero
His negative one
I want him to let me know
I’m the first and only one
I ain’t got time for no game
Man this is a shame
You don’t even remember my name
Who is to blame
When I told you I didn’t want to play
I could even tell you
I remember the day
How can I keep calm
When something so simple goes wrong
Why can’t he get his shit together
Get it straight
Over here wasting my time
When so much is at stake
Give me a Break
I’ve been through too damn much
To sit here believing all this shit you talk
Talking bout I got this
Or I can get that
Didn’t you know
That all you talking is smack
Bring it back
You stole it
My heart
You’re the perpetrator
You fucked up
Guess what
I’m not done
Want to get peace
But it’s so hard
Its annoying
Something so damn simple but still
You’re confused
How about I break it down for you
How to be in a relationship: Step one
Stop talking to them other girls for once
How about actually being there for the one you CLAIM is yours
Instead of having your girl crying
Boohoo a tear pours
While real Men grow up
They show up
Ambitions cloud their minds
They’re gentlemen without disguise
How bout you stop tryna hide
Those texts
Which shouldn’t exist
Just be with the one woman you chose to be with
20. i choose you
I get worried
Reassure me
This love story
Wants its glory
Did I ever tell you that
My heart got broken in the past
Let me tell you
It’s not easy
To trust, again
But I chose you
Because I want to
You’ve proven to me
That love can be easy
Skeptical at first but
You showed with your actions
And so I chose you
Our differences keeps it interesting
I want this thing to be more that a fling
More than friends with benefits
I want you to be the one who commits
I’m ready for you
Are you ready for me?
I get worried
Reassure me
This love story
Wants its glory
I chose you
Because I wanted to
I want to fall for you
They say that one day
Someone will come by
And make it all worth it
All the pain and the climb
You know they also say
No pain no gain
So I’m choosing you
Somethings telling me to
Yes, I have love for you
So let’s see where this love takes us
There’s no rush
ART | Black Love Canvas Print by Poetically Illustrated – Keith Mallett ^
*** EXTRA CONTENT *** Untitled 4 12-14-20 I don’t know If you’re feeling alone or low Or if you’re in the dark But I’m here because of my spark I can show you the way out I know that lately or always you’ve needed to shout But your mouth had a drought So you’ve had your doubts Somewhere along all that noise You lost or you couldn’t find your voice But you have a choice So you can rejoice. Oh and one more thing I hope that this brings You forth to the spring I know it may sting But you must think And sprout your wings This is energy transferring Anytime it’s reoccurring This love is overflowing No matter what’s occurring You will flourish So my hope is this encourages You, to come forth and be you She’s under review You’re on the queue Alter your view You’ll see it too I send you many blessings I’m sorry for overstepping I’ve lowered my weapons I fight with the heavens Bring forth the essence You sense it in my presence From this, springs forth lessons And you are progressing With all things mentioned No need for a vengeance You’re due for an intervention For greatness you are destined Stop striving for perfection Move forth with better intentions And you will be strengthened Prepare for ascension ART: Art builds bridges for aliens who crave connection with humans By David McElroy · November 1, 2015
21. pleading
3/31/13
I think that the most frustrating thing in the world is giving advice and it not being taken
What is up with people
Why is it that we wait to find out for ourselves
When we could’ve prevented such a careless mistake
Why do we always have to test the limits until we find out the outcome
Then it’s too late to retaliate
People really need to open up their eyes and be awakened
Because all this reckless stuff is being mistaken
For fun
I hate when adults are adults and don’t act grown up
They say It’s not their fault for the way they were brought up
Excuses
Passed on from generation to generation
I think that’s the most common thing in the congregation
It’s so popular to play the blame game
It’s such a shame
That we can’t take responsibilities for our actions
We’re all caught up in this game
You all think this is a game
You don’t take anything seriously
But wait you do
It’s that you guys can’t handle the truth
Reality
I get accused way too much for caring
Its a given
That it hurts me to see you hurt you for a living
It hurts me to see you grieving
When all I want to do is give you that reason to smile;
To be beaming
I’m screaming
For attention
Can’t you hear me ?
I guess everything I’ve mentioned
You just get tired of hearing
I mean if you’re so tired of hearing the same thing
What are you still doing standing there listening
Take action
Stop saying tomorrow
Let’s do it today
There’s no time for delay
because it’s about time
Stop being afraid of the climb
Look past that at the outcome
All it really takes is a little push
You’re young
But youth is only skin deep
You have the power
The power to keep
Going and growing emotionally
Physically
I believe in you
Hopefully you believe in me
Let’s get along and stop tearing each other mentally
Its pointless and careless
I’m done
Just saying
For once in your life
Stop being careless
& Reckless
Listen to what I’m saying
Trust me, for you I’m praying
ART | Pleading -Jodie Marie Anne Richardson Traugott
22. open your eyes
Open your eyes
because what you’re seeing right now is not the big picture
because what you’re seeing now is making you think no one is with you
Open your eyes
Open them big and wide
Open your mind
Because without an open mind you are undeniably blind
Open your heart because if your heart is in everything you do
Your actions may astound you
Open your ears
So that you hear to understand and not only to respond
Open your arms
And let people in
Because they may bring joy or lessons from within
Open your hand
And hold someone else’s
Lead them into happiness
Let them know about what you’ve dealt with
Or open your hand give someone something they could use to help them
Open your mouth
And speak only the truth
Speak words that bring happiness and laughter
Keep your words and prove them with your actions
Say what you want , because why sensor something that’s making you feel
Love with no bounds
Why limit the most precious thing in the world
Feel what you feel fully so that nothing is held back and you live in the moment
Never hide fear because you shouldn’t deal with this alone
Open your eyes because what you see right now is just a disguise
What you’re seeing right now is all full of lies
Open your eyes big and wide
And open your mind
Because without an open mind
You might as well be blind
23. something is missing
The one thing I’m missing in life
And that thing is you
Love has struck once or twice
But it wasn’t true
I know I shouldn’t rush these kinds of things
But I am getting tired of these good for nothing flings
Yes you’re either a blessing or a lesson
But anymore of that and I’ll go into depression
Its comes so easy to some individuals
The jealousy I feel making me think I’m some kind of pitiful
Yet you can only see it from the outside
Those people put up with the type of shit that makes me cringe and say eh-heh, bye
No one’s perfect , I’m just looking for someone to love unconditionally
But I’m losing hope because its taking so long its utterly killing me
How can I hold so much of this energy inside
The thing is I can’t and so I come off too strong and emotionally deprived
I get told to put it off and make money
And when I do its great
But it’s like a high
So I come off it eventually
Nothing lasts long enough to make me forget
Nothing can distract me long enough to make me direct
My goal elsewhere
Love is the only thing I truly want in life
Fuck everything else
I want this shit so much I’ve made it my mission
Like I’m the package deal and I’m good in the kitchen
When I get close enough to someone
They tell me I’m special
Like there’s something about me
A jewel emitting from the threshold
That’s who I am , I’m that girl people call different
Yet different doesn’t make them stay
In fact it makes them run away
Like I have body odor that’s making them dismayed
Idk why my time for love is being delayed
It’s like the world and stars are being selfish with what I have to offer
They want me to have no other choice but to help the world prosper
Because the type of devotion and dedication I possess is like a super power
Because once I have this person
There is no limit to what I would do for them
They will become my world and that’s what mother nature doesn’t want to happen
Should I give up on the idea of love
Even though I know I can’t
I’ve tried…
Artwork: Soul-searching Painting by Sujith Nambiar
24. love senses
Love and I have come a long way because I am always observing it, experiencing it and studying it.
Love feels like home, its comfort and passion, tolerance and new experiences daily.
Love looks like doing things for each other, being thoughtful, holding hands, hugs, eating together, learning and growing together. If there is genuine love in the relationship you can see it and feel it.
Love sounds like chaos and serenity. There will be many arguments but if you’re both willing to talk about the differences and compromise and repeat this a couple times till you get it right then it works.
Love tastes like a home cooked meal that you both did together because you just want to spend time together and because he needs to learn how to cook for the sake of our future
I can cook but I am not cooking everyday lol
Love smells like being lazy together and being comfortable enough to fart in front of each other and love smells like intimacy, weird intimacy like looking at the color of each other’s stools and making sure we are still healthy.
Love takes on many forms and its takes time to really get to the kind of love that make it worthwhile to try doing the forever thing.
25. love message
It’s a dangerous thing to care for someone so strongly.
It’s like asking for death.
The ones we care about most, always cut us the deepest.
Man let me tell you. Those cuts are the steepest.
Gotta go to the hospital and get stitches steep
Gotta sit in a corner, fetal position and weep
All for the love of someone.
What makes love so attractive then?
If all it causes is sadness at the end.
Makes two love bird go from I love you
To let’s just be friends.
What kind of message is love trying to send?
Artwork – M U H A M M E D S A L A H on Instagram: “your battle is my battle, we fight together. ✨
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