what you thought

6-2-21 

You thought I didn’t want you to leave 
Receive what you want to believe 
My actions will accurately perceive 
A sense of relief will have you down at your knees 
It’s called being coy, I’m not THAT naive 
Your excuses disgusting, I’m going to heave 
You got all these tricks inside of your sleeve
I pay attention, I’m hard to deceive 
I see your intentions 
Falsifying this connection 
Your mind stay in the trenches 
Whenever I ask you questions
You thought it was impressive
I have a confession, it was really offensive 
Turned me into a detective, borderline obsession 
You leave me guessing which leads to depression 
Changing my perspective, thinking comprehensive 
The goal is for this pain to lessen 
I keep living my life, it gives me lessons 
In-between that there are the blessings 
Look how majestic I’m expressing this message 
Need to live in the present, its precious 
I don’t know what you thought 
Your scheming ways is what you brought 
The love I caught has now rot 
On to the next one like I forgot 
There’s an opening for your slot 
You thought 

ART| Pinterest – Jokey Joke Artwork

perspectives

6-6-2021

To each their own in hopes of unity 
The way that I am is not due to lunacy 
I’m merely open to life’s ambiguity 
It sucks that it takes more than saying it fluently 
So I’ll break it down in this opportunity 
The goal is to build a community 
I’m always alone, so who will write my eulogy 
Honestly, not too concerned for the truancy
Just want the type of love that’s cruelty free
People don’t come with a guarantee 
Trial and error is taking its toll on me
I need people in my life that uplift 
They love me in public 
Not presenting me like I am a puppet 
I come with quirks but that’s unpublished 
I just want love to bring me to the summit 
Gods on his way, he told me he’s coming 
Maybe that’s why I randomly hear the trumpets
Like what is the ruckus 
Y’all get mad over a nugget 
I manifest and *poof* its summoned 
I’m not saying I’m not rugged
But the switch up turns my stomach 
Why put the effort in the oven 
But then you left and burnt the muffins 
Then I was inviting you back, like come in 
Your reckless demeanor hit like a comet 
You watched me plummet 
It’s so disgusting, I need to vomit 
You pushed all my buttons 
Left me in the red, forgot the budget 
Yet I still gave you chances like cometh
Maybe it’s me, I was the dumbest
I don’t see it in this perspective
It’s just the truth I’ve accepted 
After so many times of being rejected 
People inspected but then left it 
It was merely their feelings they were projecting 
When promise is detected
They were negatively infected 
They choose things with less incentive 
The reality of this was deceptive 
It seems to appear that I’m very respected 
I acknowledge I’m divinely protected 
Drawn to my vibes, they’re electric 
Maybe my views were subjected
This all happened and I disconnected 
No longer receptive 
It’s harder now to get connected 

Art| drawer888 abstract perspective

times up

6-17-21

Dwelling in coexistence 
How long will this keep existing 
For now we keep each other at a distance
But this could all end in an instance
Dating is so inconsistent 
Too easy to get caught up in the luminescence
But in my mind I feel your presence
I come in peace, I have no weapons 
I hate the mix ups that cause second guessing 
Everything ends up being a blessing or lesson 
So much confusion in just a few sentences 
So truth is, at any moment this could end 
It all depends,
Its nothing we can do as we climb up 
Universe could’ve be perverse and say “time’s up”

ART | Pinterest ‘THE IMP OF THE PERVERSE’ BY Anthony Clarkson

let’s see

6-23-21

What are we walking into
 Disconnecting as we speak 
Needless thoughts, they make me weak 
Every single connection so unique
 We don’t even lay cheek to cheek
 So it’s not that deep

 I haven’t caught on to this technique
 Taking it slow and then we’ll see
What could happen as we proceed
All I know is your presence brings me peace
I feen for your embrace to a certain degree
 It’s been a while since I felt this way, so I’m discreet

I can’t get caught up like a machine
 I pay close attention to what’s unseen
 It’s not self-sabotage when you feel serene
I love my own essence, by myself I am complete
 However, What you have, I want indeed
But if I note a pattern I will retreat
 I just need to protect my self-esteem

 Love feels like a virus
 I might need a vaccine
 Side effects would prevent fatigue
 Drawing conclusions to the extreme
 Getting fed up and hitting delete 
Self sabotage comes running in like an athlete 
Brings me to my knees as I cry out in disbelief 
Yes, this vaccine would bring relief

But I like you so let’s see

ART  “the tears of big eyes” – Spivak

LOSNWTS

6-27-21

Last one standing and nothing was the same 
Not too many of us will survive the game 
Some will fall as soon as life dents up the frame
Some will return from where they came 
Some won’t be able to get passed the blame 
They will drown in their own shame 
Others rather live untamed 
So many ways to attain the fame 
This is the game we play 
We say it’s fair game 
But no one proclaims to all the disclaims 
We weren’t prepared 
So many not spared 
I saw it with my eyes 
Some repeat the ties
Different sky different high, same lies
So what to imply, if no one here tries 
Dark clouds, no surprise
Predictable as clock time 
That made me crave the pie key lime 
What can I say? The times are grime 
Added some thyme cause it rhymed
Now it’s the summertime 
We working overtime 
It’s almost showtime 

ART | the lone wolf – ArtStation

passage

6-30-21

I never saw it at first
 How you could do me like you did
I couldn’t see you at your worst 
I was blindsided by your kiss
I was so infused by your muse
It all used to hurt but the truth is 
I hurt me more by letting you, I chose this 
While you got used to abusing and giving excuses 
I became numb as you blew all my fuses 
I thought that’s what love was 
To stay despite of the damage 
To look past the anger and the rampage
When it was time to go,
I left with my baggage 
You came back when you wanted, through the passage
We would kiss and make up but that was a bandage 
I figured this is life as it brought us challenges In reality you took advantage,
I gave you the vantage 
And once again *poof* you vanished 
You left me famished 
With a hole it my heart, it was mammoth 
I used to question how I managed 
But in times of weakness
God lifted me up
Carrying me through this rummage 
He tended to my wounds 
And here we spent so many moons 
I haven’t even gotten all that his blessing includes
But I know it’s coming soon 
Getting ready to bust out this cocoon 
No longer phased by what intrudes 
My mind is more attuned 
It was as if I pressed pause with you 
I finally pressed resume

Art | Galaxy Metal Products front page picture.