October 29, 2020

There are too many dreamers not living out their dreams because of “Life”. 

And I don’t say life like that to indicate it’s an excuse. It just sucks that because of what life throws at us we can’t even begin to do what we set out to do. There are so many talented people working a job they hate, or worst can’t find a job at all. It just seems like no matter what, some people won’t make it. 

We focus our lives trying to not be that person. Life still throws things at you and it’s as if you’re destined to fail. Unless you don’t and you make it. 

At any given moment in time, we can lose anything. Life, job, people etc. 

Yet because we spend so much time on ourselves, we miss the whole point of life. 

Life is meant to be LIVED.

You’re not supposed to suffer but we do. 
You’re not supposed to be sad, but we are. 
You’re not supposed to apply for a job you don’t want but there’s no other choice, so we do that too. 

I’m just going to say it. It’s not fair how some people have it way easier than others. I didn’t ask to be born and have to deal with this shit. Yet here I am. Because I don’t want to end up like what, a failure.

Honestly failing doesn’t seem so bad anymore. Failure brings death to something but even from death comes a new light… a new life. 

Maybe it is all for a reason. Even if getting there is sickening to the very core of my being. 

Pray for my mind. Today I’m not fine.